Preparation and preocupation
August 30th, 2009 by Ana Scherer
I am preparing for an event this coming Tuesday. Needless to say I am doing the best I can and making sure that all basis are covered by the time I am ready to deliver the talk. In the middle of my preparation my computer started to act up on me. I noticed the tension creeping up to my shoulders. I could feel the contraction and the anger starting to show their ugly heads.
I stopped everything I was doing, turned off the computer and went to the kitchen to do the dishes. I began to imagine how absurd the situation was if I started to get angry with anything related to this awesome opportunity I was given to share my message with others. I was preparing myself to give my best to others and I didn’t want any negativity to be part of this preparation! I reminded myself that nothing is exclusively because of my efforts. I was planing and creating something for my future as if I was the one with a major saying on what’s going to happen then! I reminded myself that I am but a partner with G-d in this journey that is life. And I know that when I forget to recognize that I become a bit pathetic in thinking that I am totally responsible for my future. Not to mention that is such an unnecessary weight to carry!
It is very healthy to recognize that there are major aspects of our existence that are not our responsibility to know about. As for my struggle with the computer, after finishing the “dishes-meditation” and getting back to my desk, I turned it on and it was working nicely again…
When facing an unpleasant situation this week, before you get exasperated, try removing yourself from it if you can. Take a break, breath and give it up to the Infinite One. Remember that you have a partner that has your best interest in mind at all times!
With energy,
Ana
September 1st, 2009 at 5:48 am
ana, as usual, awesome… u did exactly what kabbalists suggest when faced with those feelings… its called the proactive formula…1. an obstacle occurs 2. realize that your reaction-not the obstacle-is the real enemy 3. shut down your reactive system to allow the LIGHT in 4. express your proactive nature … my best to you tomorrow(tuesday) you’re special!!!!!”